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As he comes to a stop

He watches the wonders

Small shiny rocks

With treasures inside

Rows and rows of trees

The fire breaks free

And up in the sky

Is a strong sun

Lighting and burning

Till can’t look no more

And up ahead it starts to explode

Magic spreads

And he as a bird

completes the beaty of this

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

As he comes to a stop

He watches the wonders

Small shiny rocks

With treasures inside

Rows and rows of trees

The fire breaks free

And up in the sky

Is a strong sun

Lighting and burning

Till can’t look no more

And up ahead it starts to explode

Magic spreads all over

And he as a bird watches this all

All beauty of the world

i am an immmigrant!

Immigrants in Our Own Land

by Jimmy Santiago Baca

We are born with dreams in our
hearts,

looking for better days ahead.

At the gates we are given new
papers,

our old clothes are taken

and we are given overalls like
mechanics wear.

We are given shots and doctors
ask questions.

Then we gather in another room

where counselors orient us to
the new land

we will now live in. We take
tests.

Some of us were craftsmen in
the old world,

good with our hands and proud
of our work.

Others were good with their
heads.

They used common sense like
scholars

use glasses and books to reach
the world.

But most of us didn’t finish
high school.

The old men who have lived
here stare at us,

from deep disturbed eyes,
sulking, retreated.

We pass them as they stand
around idle,

leaning on shovels and rakes
or against walls.

Our expectations are high: in
the old world,

they talked about
rehabilitation,

about being able to finish
school,

and learning an extra good
trade.

But right away we are sent to
work as dishwashers,

to work in fields for three
cents an hour.

The administration says this
is temporary

So we go about our business,
blacks with blacks,

poor whites with poor whites,

chicanos and indians by
themselves.

The administration says this
is right,

no mixing of cultures, let
them stay apart,

like in the old neighborhoods
we came from.

We came here to get away from
false promises,

from dictators in our
neighborhoods,

who wore blue suits and broke
our doors down

when they wanted, arrested us
when they felt like,

swinging clubs and shooting
guns as they pleased.

But it’s no different here.
It’s all concentrated.

The doctors don’t care, our
bodies decay,

our minds deteriorate, we
learn nothing of value.

Our lives don’t get better, we
go down quick.

My cell is crisscrossed with
laundry lines,

my T-shirts, boxer shorts,
socks and pants are drying.

Just like it used to be in my
neighborhood:

from all the tenements laundry
hung window to window.

Across the way Joey is
sticking his hands

through the bars to hand
Felip� a cigarette,

men are hollering back and
forth cell to cell,

saying their sinks don’t work,

or somebody downstairs hollers
angrily

about a toilet overflowing,

or that the heaters don’t
work.

I ask Coyote next door to
shoot me over

a little more soap to finish
my laundry.

I look down and see new
immigrants coming in,

mattresses rolled up and on
their shoulders,

new haircuts and brogan boots,

looking around, each with a
dream in their heart,

thinking they’ll get a chance
to change their lives.

But in the end, some will just
sit around

talking about how good the old
world was.

Some of the younger ones will
become gangsters.

Some will die and others will
go on living

without a soul, a future, or a
reason to live.

Some will make it out of here
with hate in their eyes,

but so very few make it out of
here as human

as they came in, they leave
wondering what good they are now

as they look at their hands so
long away from their tools,

as they look at themselves, so long gone from their families,

so long gone from life itself,
so many things have changed.

 

I guess I chose this poem because it’s something I really
care about. A message that will forever stay inside of me and will follow until
I die. A word I was called since I was four, when I came to the United States. An
immigrant.

And though it hurts to be called an immigrant, I’m
proud of being an Ecuadorian. But because I was not born in this country, I will
never have the same advantage as the people who were born here.  I don’t visit my family back home and it’s
been almost ten years since ill seen my grandma. I practically don’t know how
it feels to have grandparents. To feel their love and touch. And I just watch
my brother go to Ecuador every year. And it hurts a lot to see someone I care go
to Ecuador and not take me. I know I’m jealous.

     But what really touched me in this poem is the sentence “We are born with dreams in our hearts, 

     lookingfor better days ahead. “. The poet right here is looking through the eyes of an
immigrant. Feeling what us immigrants feel. Because people want what’s best for
themselves. We are dreamers and we dream of high education, of a nice home with
a nice roof. We dream of better salaries and a light bulb. And to not walk a
large distance just to get some water. But unlike some people who aren’t
immigrants we the immigrants must work much harder. Since our descendants didn’t
leave a home behind for us or something that would make it easier to go on with
life. And since our descendants didn’t come to the United States for us.

     
we must start from scratch and cross the border.  We must leave our family and friends behind to
accomplish our dream.  We must do what’s
best for our family. We must look forward to a refrigerator full of food and
for good health. We must look forward to better days.

      what bought me and my family to New York was
me. I was sick at that time and my parents didn’t have money to pay a surgery. And
without that surgery I would have died. So my mother came to New York and
worked hard in a restaurant, slowly learning English and getting the money I needed
for the surgery. And once the surgery was over my father thought we should get
a better life. So my father left and I stayed with my grandmother. I was alone
for two years, but I got to go to school. And finally when I was four I came
here. I don’t actually remember anything and hope it stays like that. It would
be much too painful if i get a flashback.

   

      and it’s never easy for immigrants to
cross the border. My dad tried three times finally succeeding on his third try.
My uncle came to the United States too. He was young, 19 years old. When he got
here he had trauma. he had witnessed coyotes rapping women while in the border.
.They have to cross a lot of countries. They have to walk, run, sail and
finally take a plane.   And yet many don’t
succeed.

      And the
last few lines starting from “But in the end…”was surprising too. It’s all true.
The poet knew just what happens at the end. Some have some happiness. For others
it ends badly. When immigrants are finally here they end in poverty. Or hate.
Sometimes even missing the old times. When the place they came from looked much
better than the United States. But happily for me and my family all went well. We
have earned all the money we need to buy a car and during the last ten year we
had built a big house in Ecuador and a store. We even have extra money for
college and vacations. Now we are ready to move on. I am ready to meet my
family once again. And so when I graduate this year were moving back to Ecuador.

   but other people are not going back home. They
have raised children here and sometimes immigrants are afraid of their own
country. Only if they knew what it feels like to be back home. And my aunt is
one of those immigrants, who tries to talk me out of going back home, but all I
could say in my mind is “ I’m ready, I know it, Ecuador is where I belong.

laughter through those tough times

Sold
Sold
Sold into prostitution where life would never be the same. And those dreams you had will never come true. Where you will be trafficked until you aren’t worth it anymore. Until you get a disease or die.  And until your family has forgotten all about you. It’s where happiness was taken away. Where you just feel death is better than this.

And that’s what’s happening to Lakshmi when she was sold by her step father.  Sold! In the book sold by Patricia McCormick.  There are many things I would have loved to write about this book. I could have wrote something big from every paragraph she wrote because she picks such a deep and sophisticated topic that it all makes me learn life some more. And this just stood out.

“How they can eat and laugh and carry on as normal when soon the men will come  is so perplexing that, while they laugh, I fight back tears,”

I didn’t understand why trafficked women from the book will ever learn to laugh again. And act as if things are normal. Nothing is normal. That sure is true. But still these women pretend. They dream as if nothing happens during the night. Like if they are not in that place. As if they have never been touched by a men.

And while those women pretend to have a normal life, Lakshmi can’t get over that she’s trafficked. That this sweet place is not anything sweet just filth of men.  And full of people that she doesn’t understand.

But this book showed me that even though everything is a misery. If everything is hell. There’s still the option of pretending. Because nobody could live without some happiness in life. Nobody could go through this without some friends. Nobody could make it  without some hope.

And this reminds me of another book. I don’t remember its title or anything about it. But this one thing just stayed with me. That even homeless people living in poverty have happiness. They laugh with friends and talk to other people. They need happiness to go on throw this horrible time of life that would hopefully change.

Some women hope to have children because that’s the only happiness in that misery. The kids that would make women go on through this every night.  The women who would do anything for their child. And I guess that this women just want a better future for their children and not for themselves. Because a mother loves her children more than she could say.

And just family or friends make a little laughter go back in life and make you and me go on threw the tough times and fight threw them. Because without pretending we are nothing. In our dreams we are our own queens and kings. But in that place, in that trouble, wrong people see us as nothing.  When truly we are everything.

What happened the day before Chritmas till Christmas

This isn’t homework and this isn’t about reading either. I just felt like writing. I felt like putting my feeling into words that I can go back to them all over and over again. And what are better feelings, than Christmas feelings.

9: 23 pm ok it just turned 9:24 now it’s 9:27 12/24 the day before Christmas

I was away for a few minutes because my mom just came from work. And it takes about 3 minutes to hug and kiss my mother. Every Christmas we go to one of my aunt’s house to make a big party and open presets at 12 am. At 12 am we know that all family and friends are gathered around the tree and waiting for us. We know it’s time to celebrate the birth of Jesus. This year were going to celebrate at my house, which was a last minute thing because my aunt got sick and couldn’t cook dinner.

Right now I’m waiting for the whole family to come. The food is all done. I can smell the chicken and pork. There’s a lot of rice, salad and potatoes. There are a lot of things I still can’t name. All I know is that this is the picture of Christmas. And I can’t wait I’m too excited. I can’t wait for all my cousins to come so we could snuggle together.

9:48 still the same day

A few minutes ago my oldest cousin arrived. She’s in collage so don’t see her often. And I’m happy I got to finally see her and meet her new husband. Which I think he is nice and a very happy man. She’s lucky she got him. Right now I’m in my room and I know I’m wasting time not being with her, but I promised myself would do this. I will write on Christmas. Right now they’re in the leaving room eating and laughing. And right now I have to go. The bell just rang and I have to open the door.

10:26

Three of my cousins came and my aunt and uncle came too. They put the presents were my presents and my biggest cousins presents are. They’re under the big light tree. And the tree is already fully surrounded. I’m in my room writing his and changing into nice clothes. And each of my cousins is waiting outside to come inside my room.

Now I’ve changed and opened the door. My cousins (except the oldest one she’s in the living room talking to other grownups) are beside of me.  One is watching me write. And the other is playing with her little brother and my little brother. Every year it’s the same. And I like it that way. But sometimes I wish it will be another way. In my wish there’s no party and there’s mom, dad, and siblings. They sing at night and have some fun. But there’s always a tree. And instead of opening presents at 12 am they open presents when they wake up on the 25 of December. But then I love having my cousins and whole big family over.

10:34

My other part of the family arrived too (two cousins and an aunt and uncle). They bought presents too! Now they’re in my room. And we are all cramped together. But still we make the best of the room. We are playing on the computer and just listening to music and talking. We are still waiting for another aunt and uncle and three cousins. It’s hard for them to come. They live all the way in Staten Island and had to work in their restaurant. I don’t think they’ll be able to make it. Still, they won’t bring presents because of financial problems, but I still want to see them.

11:02

Now my uncle is here. He’s part of my dad’s family, his brother. I guess he’s the only person that has my father’s true blood. Everyone else is from my mom’s part of the family. He brought a present for me, my brother and father. I’m so happy I can’t wait to find out what’s in that envelope (or how much is in that envelope).

11:45

Its 15 minutes away from opening presents. I don’t think my uncle and aunt and cousins we are waiting for will come. 

12:14

I’ve already opened and handed out presents to people. I got two pajamas (what a shame, now I’m going to give one to my mother). I got a pretty white sweater. And a costly silver pen. Oh and I got 40 dollars which I will spend half of it after school starts on a wallet/case I wanted from Claire’s. And from my friends I got a four leaf clover necklace and a pocket watch and a case for my iPod.  It’s just all so nice and pretty especially the necklace which I think will give me good luck as long as I wear it.

12: 48

Everyone is drinking hot chocolate or coffee including me. We’re also eating some food along with it. Right now I’m wearing my new pajama and my necklace is around me. My eyes are already starting to close slowly. I think I won’t last till the party finishes.

1:02

My father and everyone else who had a camera just took pictures of all of us together. We were wearing Santa hats and eating candy. Then for 2 minutes my brother and little cousin sang “I wish you a merry Christmas”. Then we all clapped.

1:26

Now everyone is gone. They left like 10 minutes ago. Now I’m ready to go to bed and say bye. I’m ready for this writing piece to end. Merry Christmas!

We only got one chance for this

I finally finished reading 19 minutes by Jodi Picoult. I guess it’s been about a month since I last checked it out of Ms.Robbins library. The first week, I read halfway the next week I read a bit but it was my laziness fault that I didn’t finish it. The week after that, I put it aside because of no time. I had to finish my picture book. And now this week I managed to get back on track. And you know I’m kind of glad it’s all over. I can finally search the library for a new fresh book.  And I could learn something entirely different.

Most people will be unhappy and maybe crying when a book finishes. All the words in that book are read and there is no more left. Something terrible had to happen in that book for it to finish. I feel the same way. But yet I put that feeling away. I wrap it up real nice and open the bag with the happy feeling. I want to feel glad. Because if it were never to finish I will never begin another book. And although it’s impossible to read all the books on earth, I still want to read as many books as I can.

And maybe I didn’t read harry potter because of this. I was scared, that if I took a lot of time on reading those big gigantic books I will miss many other great books in my life. And I will never get to read those books.  And I’m still scared. But still I know one of this days I would read the whole harry potter series. I would do this before dead stops me. If we are dead we will never come back to live to resolve our problems. We only got one chance for this.

And that’s why I feel bad for taking so long on this book. It’s not I don’t love it because I do. It’s that I want to give the next book a chance too. And now I will try to get back on track because I missed a great 500 pages long book. And instead of reading two books per month I will read three books this month.

The happiness is exploding inside of me. It can’t hold much longer. I’m wishing right now that I were in a big library. Where all the books in the world are there. And I stay there for the rest of my life reading every single one of them. I’m happy after I finish a book, when finally say “oh my god this is the greatest book in the world” close it, and move on to the next one. I do this again and again as a cycle. And the only thing that could stop this cycle is dead.

my inspiration.

There’s a book that I call my inspiration. And if you look inside the book, pages are taped together. Pages are half torn. And the cover and back is ripped a bit. But still this book called lone eagle by Danielle steel is my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. It’s my inspiration for reading, for life. And writing. It’s the best booked ill yet touched, felt, read and cried over. It’s the book that inspires me to go on with life and to never give up. It’s the book I have to search forever at the bottom of my book shelf, but it’s all worth it when I’m done.

One night my dad came home with three books. One of them was this book. He found them on a box outside a house. They were given away. I read lone eagle.  I was desperate to read for I had not read since school ended. And I never imagined this being a miracle. Of this old book to be gold for my eyes. And I thank that person for giving it away instead of throwing it out. I thank my dad for picking this one from all the books there were on that box.  And I thank the writer for writing the greatest book of all times.

A Writer has to have an inspiration. Someone or something that makes us write. That makes us love it. That makes us see the true art behind writing. Who is there every time we need help. And this book always helps me. I get new ideas, new stories, new craft moves from this book. From the wonderful words in the leaves. I need this to continue on writing. To continue writing as I do.

And apart from teaching me new love, the impossible and possible, like other books. This book and I got connected. It was like love at first sight. Love at the eagle. Lonely but still an eagle. That shiny gold eagle that calls me to the pages. The eagle that is the only one. The only kind. And I am the only one. The only one to write this. The only one who could write like this. But still I try to write like the author. And in so many ways I wished I was him. That I had his writing. That I had his passion and words.

Even though this book is only worth 26.95 dollars its worth a million dollars to me. No a million dollars for each page, no, each word. To my eyes it’s a miracle sent from god. A sign that I could become a writer. A sign that I need to work hard for what I love. And it can’t get no better with an inspiration to follow you thought your carrier.