love

Savannah…
Savannah…

I hear myself repeating her name with love as if I were the one deeply in love with her. In a sense I am in love with the character but still I know that I could live without her. The word death scared me; the word love made me read more. i am scared of death but now i know that love lasts forever.Dear John is filled with love, relationship, trust, and death. Nicholas sparks puts a lot of depth and emotion as if somehow this has happen to him before, a person without passing through this could not write it. Only he could. This book has simply no description just the word love. Nothing could ever be compared to savannah’s and john’s love. This love is so real that I am left thinking what I ever saw from twilight.

I never really believed in love at first sight. I thought it was just lust. Then I really saw it in my head when it happened to john. I was john at that moment. I was looking at her eyes. Seeing what I never expected to see. Not sure of what I felt just that I did not want to look away. I saw the sun, the moon, my parents, coins, the past and the present with her. I didn’t care if the world ended as long as I was with her. I let my heart lead me deeper and stop following by brain. I saw the eyes as the clue to love at first sight and not the body or the looks. In the first page she was mentioned, I instantly fell in love with her. I wanted to know more about her even though I knew love is dangerous especially in a book were there are conflicts.

She did not just break John’s heart but my heart too.At this point i thought it was to much as though she were breaking up with me to. She should have waited. Still it was too much. I couldn’t hate her. I loved her too much to hate her. I just felt sorry and kept thinking of what could have been. I saw 2 kids, a camp every summer, horses, and a big house. I saw all the love that was in the air. I saw john’s future and what I want my future to be like. I can’t hate my mother for slapping me during a discussion; I can’t hate my 5th grade best friend for betraying me. I love them and they will always be loved.

Whenever i hear my parents screaming at eachother i think that they are going to split up, but in no more than 20 minutes both of them are huddled up in the sofa with hot chocolate in their hands. though i am scared that one of this days it might be to much for my dad or mom i wait in my room paitiently for their fight to stop. i just flow with their relationship. i am left thinking, that i was just someone to make their relationship better. they are still lovers and not just parents.

I am left thinking that real love has conflicts. Nobody’s relationship is perfect. There are small problems that could be resolved, but John’s and Savannah’s problem was too big or just to much to handle. Nickolas Sparks puts his life into the book and though it’s not quite the same as experiencing love, it’s the closest thing to it. Though I have never felt love I want to keep saying I’m in love all over and over again.